Shimmer - Wishing

I remember

When i didn’t lash out in a temper

I guess it’s the pressure

Or the fear that the pain lasts forever

It was so easy

And care free

Now it haunts me

It’s dark and it’s empty

I can’t see

Whats in front of me

Because it shimmers

And it goes away

It shimmers

Then it goes away

You’re like a modern day queen

And i’m just a head full of bad dreams

Tonight i’m wondering why i’m still alone

I’m afraid of my cellphone

I know that everybody wants to help me

And they want to know if this is helping

But i can’t say

Because it shimmers

And it goes away

The light always dwindles

It doesn’t stay

You said lets wait until we’re both thirty five

I don’t see our parents alive

Our bodies are velcro

I’m afraid of my cellphone