Eight Months - Wishing

Let’s play a game

Where you guess how I’ve been

And you get no hints from me

No tragedy

Only pictures of my hips

In the dark i’m not very smart

I’ve been falling over a lot

I think i’m falling apart

I need you

I need you more than i want to

I want to wait for springtime

Been sick for so long

It feels like a lifetime

I don’t like my body

I know you like my body

Sometimes I see my body

And it scares me

In the coming months

I will do my best

Not to waste away

So when i step on scales

Like they’re broken glass

It’s to make a change

I need you

I need you more than you need me

It’s freeing to admit that

I admit that i hate myself more

When you’re not here