Inside My Head - Anasarca

I lost my hair — first round of chemo

As I blew out my candles

I thought about the next year as I always do Very easy having cancer

Cause you do not know you have it at that time

Very easy having cancer

Until it starts catching up with you

I do not think of myself as a cancer patient everyday

No thoughts of dying

But just enough to bring me down again

I want to talk about the cancer inside my head

The mental disease that I feel

Maybe one day I will have a child and die

If my cancer comes back

Maybe after, when it is older…

No attendance in it’s life

If my cancer comes back

No one ever wants to hear it That any day a bomb will drop again

I’m in war with my own body

This is my personal Vietnam

I lost my hair — first round of chemo

As I blew out my candles

I thought about the next year as I always do Very easy having cancer

Cause you do not know you have it at that time

Very easy having cancer

Until it starts catching up with you

I do not think of myself as a cancer patient everyday

No thoughts of dying

But just enough to bring me down again

Pain inside my head