If Only - Anasarca

Here I sit in my cell

Plain white, stone cold walls

All alone with my thoughts, memories

And my regrets to keep me company

WISHING ONLY IF.

.

Dreaming of holding my babies

Hearing their tiny voices and laughter

Watching them grow up

Dreaming I could see and touch

My Mom without the glass

IF ONLY.

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IF ONLY.

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I HAD REACHED OUT!

Dreaming of feeling wet grass on bare feet

The sun on my face, wind in my hair

Watching the stars

Feeling peace, hope, happiness, and belonging

IF ONLY.

.. I' D REACHED OUT!

Reality, I' m alone on DEATH ROW

With no sense of hope, peace, or happiness

Day in, day out, I relive my failures, regrets

And that terrible night, knowing I’m

To blame for losing my babies

Realizing that what I dream of most

Could have been reality for me

Could have been reality for them

IF ONLY.

.. I' D REACHED OUT!

Here I sit in my cell

Plain white, stone cold walls

All alone with my thoughts, memories

And my regrets to keep me company

WISHING ONLY IF.

.

I 'D REACHED OUT!