Crawling Deeper - ThouShaltNot

I’m crawling deeper in this hole where it’s too cramped to move like you do

And where the echoes blend my words into a language of their own

And I think the corners I am turning dull my lantern to the outside

And the less that you remember me, the more this path is overgrown

And the way back is just a lucky break that

Connects me to the dressing up of melody, the bite of infidelity

And I’d long to swallow one more old song

Pretending that I have a chance to make you care about this failing solitaire

Where I’m in here and you’re out there

'Cause I’m crawling deeper in, into my own skin

Where there’s no one to chase away

Or to guess the next thing that I say

I’m invisible to you, to your bird’s eye view

I know the angle all too well

It’s how I saw before I fell

And now it’s not so hard to tell

I’m crawling deeper in myself

And these corridors are veined with every word we’ve ever spoken

And the story that they tell is just a wheel within a wheel

But every time I think I’m crossing into where you cannot find me

You are always right behind me, half inside me, half unreal

I forget all the skies and crocus petals

A time without retreating like a refugee from such imagined treachery

Now silent, I’m searching out this island

Pretending that I have a chance to make it where the morning’s not recycled air

And you’re more than a prayer

Because I’m crawling deeper in, into my own skin

Where there’s no one to chase away

Or to guess the next thing that I say

I’m invisible to you, to your bird’s eye view

I know the angle all too well

It’s how I saw before I fell

But now it’s not so hard to tell

I’m crawling deeper in myself