Laugh - The Lulls in Traffic

Look at my face, does it still look the same?

You should know

You used to feel it every day

I’m defeated 'cause time has eroded

And the things that I’ve chosen to remember are over, over

But it’s water under the bridge, sand at the edge of the ocean

I stand alone hoping still but floating

Must feel better

How do you do it?

How have you done it in the past?

I used to laugh at you but now your wings are laughing right back

Can’t grasp you, can’t ask you to reconsider

'Cause you already planted the seeds for winter

It’ll be back again to safely inundate me

Blatantly painting, maybe on dream chasing

Hating me 'til the king himself come around paying me, right

Delusions of justice or karma coming through for  me

Arm in arm, you and me, I’d kill myself for that, for happenstance

Or for our half romance to at least come to a full finish

What’s there to do but laugh?

But I can honestly say that I forgot to do that

When the sun’s out I hate you, but by moonlight I love you

I miss you

Every night is a struggle

When i was with you, I forgot who I was and things made sense

Now my time is spent engaged in preemptive defense

Building a fence around the cloud that hangs over my head

'Cause my joy is shattered glass and my laugh is pretend

So pretend you never met me

Wish I could do the same

Because I sold tomorrow short for a new today

I fell past the tree line, past the street

And under the subway, my past repeats

My last reprieve is the grief that fights on

Rock bottom, limestone, spotlight, i am alone

Ready to speak but my words lost their purity

Invisible disease that is now blurring the line between real and fake

I felt safe when I was with you

You’d light up and laugh when I kissed you

It seems happiness is an illusion, and you’ve mastered it

I can tell, it shows up in every photograph that I have

Plastered up on my wall, subtracted

Back from when you still loved me, past tense

And if I failed at life but made you smile it was worth it

Hypnotized on the surface level

But a kiss from your lips is worthless

Hello, wish I could take it back

I’m sorry, didn’t mean to make you laugh