Oliolioxinfree - Sworn In

I’ve begged for death one too many times

Singing and screaming these useless rhymes

But this time I’ll take control

I’ll lay down and accept my role

My heart is turning fucking black

You had your fingers crossed behind your back

My heart is turning fucking black

I’m screaming oliolioxinfree

Cause I can’t find my sanity

Where could it be?

Is this even me?

Is this even me?

I’m not suicidal I swear

Oops I forgot that I don’t care

To appease your standards

To be the better man

Withering dry doing everything I can

I don’t get shit back

And I’m tired of that

Because everything you hate in me is everything you lack

Get up

Get out

Fuck me till I can think again

Fuck me till I can feel again

Fuck me until I can feel

My world’s collapsed

So it’s time to relapse

Where I shut myself down

And pull apart the scraps

So long to who you knew

Cause I changed before you withdrew

It’s true, I’m through, I have no clue who I am

Just a useless fucking shell of a bitter broken man

I hate my own head

I wish I was dead

I dream of knives and blood dripping red (dripping red)

This isn’t a scene from a silver screen

And there’s no fucking way to wipe myself clean

The pieces I stole just turned into coal

Always knew it was my role

Always knew I was a dead soul