The Unspeaking - Seeming

On a hill this is no dream

Much as I would wish it so

Much as I would wish the earth itself

To bloom in black, to overflow

And is Heaven coughing blood?

Or is this just rain that burns my cheeks?

Cause I swear I’ve not been crying

But I’ve crying here for weeks

And all my days will just be numbers

Despite my losing count

These tears are oxygen and hydrogen

In changeless and ordained amounts

'Cause the answer was yes or no

There were only two ways to go

Still I lost the moment to transgress

When I answered no or yes

I will make this very clear

I will do this only once

I am gazing at your holiness

I am standing still and facing front

So I’ve come back to repent

And I’ve come back to reclaim

Some infinitude of silence

The unspeaking of my name

Will you grow this hill to mountains?

Will the mountains fall to space?

And each degree of every circle

Paint a forest on my face?

There were never words for yes or no

Through the Earth above, through the Earth below

And no borderland to repossess

When I answered no or

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