Still Alive - Randolph

My whole damn school, dropping the jokes

Too white to rap, too fat to rap, too weird to make it work

So I went BACK to the drawing board

BACK to rapping back and forth

I WORKED to get myself to a point

Where I get love and support

But my hometown was dead

There was no music in the air

… Still no body cared

Right there’s that when I went and prepared

To get my music on the interest, I posted it upon YouTube

Not being rude, but I sat back, I watched that and I got views

I felt like a king, like I finally found my reason my reason be here

Everything so clear, no longer would I get called weird

Then one thing led to another, got mad people saying they love it

Got mad people hitting me up saying they wanna hear loads more of it

And then rest was history, went and made all of the hits you see

But stopped it all to go to school, the reason why?

it’s a mystery

Nah I ain’t gonna LIE

When I look up to the SKY

I realize why I’m still Alive

Killing this life like

Nah I ain’t gonna lie, those days were the darkest of my life

Felt like a part of me had died, along with 100 hundred sleepless nights

Cause no longer was I living my dream, Instead I was living somebody else’s

Living alone in a cold dry place, FROZEN, yeah man something like else’s

Can’t get no help, cause I’m too damn proud, to admit my pain

So instead I admit defeat, hang up my coat, and end my reign

Meanwhile, everybody else is winning, everybody else is singing

I’m sat writing essays, when there’s songs that should have been written

Nah I ain’t gonna lie, at the time I hated life

Depression had taken over and a part of my had died

But then I had an epiphany, so right now hope you’re listening

Opened up the curtains saw the sky fucking glistening

I felt so small, like my don’t even matter

‘Cause it’s true, should be stepping forward, not stepping backwards

So any time that you’re down in the world, just look up to the sky

See the beauty in your eye, get back up and kill it LIKE

Nah I ain’t gonna LIE

When I look up to the SKY

I realize why I’m still Alive

Killing this life like