Desolation - Portals

After all of this time, I still can’t say that I’m fine

I’m still searching for security inside my clouded mind

You’ve made your mistakes, I know I’ve made mine, but I just wanted an apology

for years of wasted time

For the tongue is a fire, and I was set ablaze by the ignorance and arrogance

that you displayed

You fed me lies

Looked into my eyes, told me that Hell awaited me for how I lived my life

Your words cut deeper than a spear to the rib

With time, I’m hoping I can learn to forgive

I just can’t forget the things that you said

How all of these years later, you’re still stuck inside my head

You dug deep, unearthing feelings foreign to me

The edges fell away with the strike of your spade

Unrelenting, the emptiness is all that remains

Every lash of your tongue dug my grave

I won’t let you bury me

I just wanted you to see that the consequences of your actions left impressions

I won’t forget

Lasting reminders of time spent wasted

It’s bittersweet to know that you created me

You were the catalyst to my suffering

I hope that Heaven is real, so you can finally understand how it feels to watch

something that you once loved go up in smoke

To feel the desolation in the absence of hope

I hope you watch me burn

I hope the salt stings your eyes

Watching down from above as you listen to my cries

I hope you watch me burn