Disclosure - Patient Sixty-Seven

It won’t let me forget that I’m a fucking mess

Holds all the cards

With every edge

I swear it knows me more with every breath

I know myself less with each regret

Why do I still crave the end

I forgive myself

But I can’t forget

I can’t afford this

I can’t explain it

I can’t ignore this

Fucking fading

It’s moving faster

Not refraining

Afraid to say

It’s past containing

I am not who I claimed to be

This addiction my enemy

You never knew who I was before

(was before)

Wouldn’t understand if I told you

Just not the same person you once knew

Repaying every debt inside my head

Forgive me but I cannot forget

It won’t let me forget that I’m a fucking mess

Holds all the cards

With every edge

I swear it knows me more with every breath

It’s molding me

Controlling me

Get away

Get away

Get away

I am so fucking weak

Leave me Isolated

Six feet deep

I am not who I claimed to be

This addiction my enemy

You never knew who I was before

(was before)

Wouldn’t understand if I told you

Just not the same person you once knew

Repaying every debt inside my head

Forgive me but I cannot forget

Why

I don’t try to control it or try to replace it

Why

I try to pray but this voice speaks hatred

Why

Do I need your validation

Why

I rely on a bottle to replace the failure

The pressure

Having my life judged and measured

I know it

I’m repulsive

I’m repulsive

Fuck