My History Will Be the Death of Me - Michael Malarkey

I got the heart of the night on my sleeve

And I see in the dark when I can’t speak and I can’t breathe

I got the marks of a man under siege

And I follow my gut like a cut when I can’t see and I’m still here

It’s still me

I got the fight of the lion in me

And I clench my teeth when I can’t speak and I can’t breathe

Because there’s no words for this inability to see the

Decency in these people around me

Because I’m a bullfighter at the rodeo

I hear the young hearts breaking on the radio

And you got me good

It’s not my neighbourhood

And I’m a long, long way away from home

Baby, I’m gone, gone, spinning on out of this world

Gotta simmer down, down, baby down the rabbit hole

I got your number, honey bunny, and I’m ready to roll

I got your number, honey bunny, and I’m ready to roll

See, I get stuck from time to time, it seems

And when I’m down in that rut, well there’s no truth or clarity

And all I see is my inhumanity

But I still follow my dreams like a goddamn worker bee

My history will be the death of me

Still got a light, that kid keeps burning in me

And I try to fight but I’m overwhelmed by empathy

I got it bad, this ambivalence you see

And the devil in me keeps on hollering up

Because I’m a boneshaking daddy-o

I left my heartstrings broken on the patio

That shit is cold

I left my soul by the side of the road

Road blazing now I’m driving too slow

I’m on the run, run, sugarbun, dumber than some

Gotta cool it down, down, baby 'cause it burns like the sun

I got your picture in my wallet and that shit weighs a ton

I got your picture in my wallet and that shit weighs a ton

Baby, I’m gone, gone, spinning on out of this world

Gotta simmer down, down, baby, down the rabbit hole

What’s with the death wish?

Let it slip, look at it snow

I got my mind on my honey and my honey is on my mind

I got my mind on my honey and my honey on my mind, on my mind, on my mind

I don’t mind, I don’t mind, I don’t mind