Gon Die - Merkules, Stevie Ross

I smoke too much, I drink too much, I feel like I’m gon' die

I’m anxious, bruh, it’s way too much I think I lost my mind

Once again I’m on the edge and I just keep on looking down

If I jumped and hit rock bottom would it even make a sound?

I smoke too much I drink too much I feel like I’m gon die

I’m anxious bruh it’s way too much I think I lost my mind

Once again I’m on the edge and I just keep on looking down

If I jumped and hit rock bottom would it even make a sound?

'Cause I don’t wanna feel like this

But this some real life shit

I know you feel my shit whoah

No I don’t wanna feel like this

But this some real life shit

I know you feel my shit whoah

How’d it get like this?

So fucked up I could slit my wrists

But I’m in that whip and I’m way too hot like I hit the switch

I gotta figure it out but all my friends like Merk whatchu trippin' about

See what I’m feeling is doubt

It used to be a dream now I’m livin' it out

But we still in the drought, huh

It’s kinda crazy how that work

At 16 I got hacked like a password

I’m a product of my past now that hurts

I’m the real fucking deal you an actor

Last year I lost my uncle to cancer

So this year I don’t fuck with you rappers

The worst part is I just started smoking

It’s fucked up y’all think that I’m joking

That’s the reason that he lost his life I did not think twice

It does not feel right

What can I say I’m a sick individual

Drinking all the time now it feels like a ritual

Started off small that was minuscule

I been doin' this shit since middle school

They asking me questions in interviews

They wanna know what I did and I didn’t do

I smoke too much I drink too much I feel like I’m gon' die

I’m anxious bruh it’s way too much I think I lost my mind

Once again I’m on the edge and I just keep on looking down

If I jumped and hit rock bottom would it even make a sound?

I smoke too much I drink too much I feel like I’m gon' die

I’m anxious bruh it’s way too much I think I lost my mind

Once again I’m on the edge and I just keep on looking down

If I jumped and hit rock bottom would it even make a sound?

And they all love the song too much

Sleeping on they junk too much

High living month to month

Phone change up I’ma die soon

Give momma all the money from the itunes

Stepping on shells with my nice shoes

Don’t want load it up cause I might shoot

I hang around guns and bricks

I need to stop catching rides on these sunken ships

Mean but I’m not 'bout what the assumption is

Last year I was sad as shit but I was rich

And now I’m broke with a classic

Now I’m clean and sober

Man I came so far from leanin' over

Ex-friends talkin' 'bout how Stevie over

But they need the order

They don’t even know me

Picking up the bag with no logo

Every damn thing stamps inside

I’d say more but its better that you don’t know

Wave high when you camped outside

Last year I had 4 different condos

Kicked out before I could have 5

That’s why every day i wake and give thanks and I’m humble

If I don’t I might die 'c

I wake up every morning still exhausted

Cigarette butts on the carpet

I been fed up with this nonsense, yeah

There’s still a couple demons in my closet

When i see 'em just that feeling got me nauseous

I can’t stop it no

I smoke too much I drink too much I feel like I’m gon' die

I’m anxious bruh its way too much I think I lost my mind

Once again I’m on the edge and I just keep on looking down

If I jumped and hit rock bottom would it even make a sound?

'Cause I don’t wanna feel like this

But this some real life shit

I know you feel my shit whoah

No I don’t wanna feel like this

But this some real life shit

I know you feel my shit whoah

Cause I don’t wanna feel like this

But this some real life shit

I know you feel my shit whoah

No I don’t wanna feel like this

But this some real life shit

I know you feel my shit whoah

I smoke too much I drink too much I feel like I’m gon' die

I’m anxious bruh it’s way too much I think I lost my mind

I smoke too much I drink too much I feel like I’m gon' die

I’m anxious bruh it’s way too much I think I lost my mind

I smoke too much I drink too much I feel like I’m gon' die

I’m anxious bruh it’s way too much I think I lost my mind

I smoke too much I drink too much I feel like I’m gon' die

I’m anxious bruh it’s way too much I think I lost my mind