Losin Sleep - Merkules

I wish that I was happy but I haven’t been

I struggle with the realization that I just cannot quit

Like am I really a person?

Or just a product of this rappin' shit

I ask myself like, «When the fuck I ask for this?»

It’s been a dream that I’ve had since I was young to be a

Part of the scene, but all this damage that it’s done

Makes me question if it’s worth it, I’ve been searching for the answers

With these demons on my back, I’m still determined that they’ll catch up

But who am I to really complain?

Just got a mansion with my girl outside the city, I’m saying

Sometimes to see all the rewards, you gotta live through the pain

Then I get fed up with routine and all I think of is change

Which is ironic, 'cause I wonder why it isn’t the same

It’s hard for me to tell the difference every different day, yeah

Nobody warned me 'bout this part

But I know my real fans’ll know my story from the start

It’s Merk

I’m just being honest with myself 'cause I got here by myself

I’ma keep on doing me

I just drank this bottle to myself, now I’m talkin' to myself

Lately I’ve been losin' sleep

I’m just being honest with myself 'cause I got here by myself

I’ma keep on doing me

I just drank this bottle to myself, now I’m talkin' to myself

Lately I’ve been losin' sleep

Yeah

I’m taking shots like I’m Dale Ahoy of this paranoia

Got me spillin' this forty over my pair of Jordan’s

So stay the fuck out of my bubble, it’s my territory

I’m saying sorry to myself and never staying loyal

I mask it off due to depression, I’m still standing tall

I cannon-balled into the deep end with all these rappin' sharks

I ain’t gon' frown like I had it hard, it ain’t that at all

But I had to stop smoking so much weed so I see past the fog

Be careful what you wish for, 'cause back when we was piss poor

I didn’t have to give, now when I give, they try to get more

It’s so confusing, I know they use me, it’s blatant now

I got so many snakes around my ankles that it weighs me down

I promised both my parents and my girl that I would make 'em proud

'Cause they’re the only ones who never cared about my bank account

Never cared about my bank account

Let’s go

I’m just being honest with myself 'cause I got here by myself

I’ma keep on doing me

I just drank this bottle to myself, now I’m talkin' to myself

Lately I’ve been losin' sleep

I’m just being honest with myself 'cause I got here by myself

I’ma keep on doing me

I just drank this bottle to myself, now I’m talkin' to myself

Lately I’ve been losin' sleep