Breathin' to Death - Lecrae

It’s like I’m tired of life Lord I’m wrong why I can’t get right

And when it’s dark why I can’t get light eh why it can’t be light

It’s so heavy why my sin won’t let me see the end come get me

Please come get me my thoughts my mind my ways all evil

I’m supposed to be your people I’m sposed to see your sequel

I said I’ll never leave you But I’m so left

I ain’t right Lord I’m sleeping with death

Man, I’m cheating with death am I deaf Its like I don’t hear you

I say that I’m a Christian but it’s like I don’t fear you

I’m on a selfish island and I am no where near you

God I really need you even tho I don’t appear to

I’m drinking out a broken cistern

That could never hold water and I’m gonna get burned

Tho I try I never satisfy or quench this yearn

I hear you calling but it’s like a fight for me to just turn

Lord I deserve to burn

Help me Lord before there’s no time left

I ain’t living I’m just breathing to death

Your ways are perfect and they lead me to rest

Mine are evil and they lead me to death (2x)

I’m feelin' schizophrenic maybe I ain’t saved

Cause I gotta get high just to block out all the pain

Seen death, seen hurt, seen a whole lotta thangs

Instead of running from it I’m running away from change

It’s like I’m outside in the ice cold weather

The rains coming down and I keep getting wetter

I know I’m getting sick and I could die any second

But still I refuse to let your truths make me better

I’d rather eat flies and maggots instead of bread

And it’s killing me slow but I can’t get it through my head

You were stabbed you were murdered and for me is why you bled

But I spit on your bloody face as If I never cared

And Lord how dare I compare my pain

Your father turned his back and you were left to hang

I don’t know why you did it that I can’t explain

How can you love this sinner whose desecrated your name?

Lord I deserve the flames

Help me Lord before there’s no time left

I ain’t living I’m just breathing to death

Your ways are perfect and they lead me to rest

Mine are evil and they lead me to death (2x)

I know I tell lies I know I do dirt

Apart from you I’m nothing but you can give me worth

I don’t know if I know you But still I know I should

I know the days are evil and only you are Good

I’ve come to this conclusion I would like to change

Cause all the worlds money and fame cannot sustain

I know that I should turn but thats the hardest thang

Cause do I really feel that havin' Jesus is my gain

The world is so tempting Satan is a beast

He hypnotizes my eyes to say the least

But Jesus be my treasure to know you is to live

And I am here dying trying everything there is

All I need here is you help me turn away from sin

Lord give me grace to turn away and the fear not to give in

I know that I’m not perfect but if I could rest in Him

I know I don’t deserve it but still I’ll take your hand

Lord let me take your hand