Beautiful - John Anthony

Yeah

It’s been an up and down roller coaster, I guess it’s finally over

Who would’a known that I was holdin' a chip on my shoulder

The size of a boulder but I know I couldn’t brush it off

Had to just carry this weight 'til it would crush my lung

And I couldn’t breathe, pressure applying to my chest

There was no option to power through if there’s nothing left

Isolated, I needed space so I would just forget

How I hated myself 'cause I felt I was not like the rest

It’s like your brain is going numb

You take a baby step and you like, yeah that’s enough

Was too afraid to open up, if I gave it my love

Worried I’d fall for the trap and take a knife to the gut

And though I seem to be happy

When them curtains close, them dark clouds follow me sadly

And that’s when I can get a little snappy

So how can I love it and at the same time hate it so badly, if I can

Sit here and tell you that it only gets better then I be lying

'Cause honestly I don’t know whether it’s gonna change

If effort is all you gave then never just let the pain take you,

and be proud to say

These scars are beautiful

These scars are beautiful

Through every single day I’ve try to escape that pain

But I think I can finally say that they are so beautiful