Envy the Dead - Insense

You began deep in my subconscious

I let you grow self-confident

So you crawled out under the surface

And degradation took effect

Now I yearn back to the original

To my long lost innocence

Forfeit: my dreams of normality

The world is without a sun denied

You hurt so bad, I can’t stand myself

Giving up has crossed my mind

To write my last will and testament

To write my last goodbyes

Then drown me and abandon me

Let the currents carry me home

To my rightful place in the ocean

Consoled by the simple fact that I died

And then I wake up

How?

I envy the dead

And their forever freedom

How?

I envy the dead

And their non-confrontation

When they die free

How?

I envy the dead

And their inevitable end

How?

I envy the dead

For their lack of progress