Monochrome - Heinrich Maneuver, Novelists FR

I’m trying to survive these strange days\nThis life can be such an adventure\nThe world stands before my eyes wilder than it has ever been\nI forgot these old memories of youth\nThat were caught right under the surface\nForgot these souvenirs of you\nThat were calling back the pain\nI never felt happy somehow\nBut I’m trying\nI’m trying the best I can\nI really wanna feel happy sometimes\nReally wanna know where the lights are\nBut it only feels so wrong\nIt’s eating me alive\nI never know how to shorten the distance\nBetween my heart and my head\n'Cause through my eyes, the days are monochrome\nI wanna feel the light of a new day\nBut I’m so scared of it all\nI’m scared this utter joy ain’t lasting forever\nIt’s eating me alive\nI never felt happy somehow\nBut I’m trying\nI’m trying the best I can\nI really wanna feel happy sometimes\nReally wanna know where the lights are\nBut it only feels so wrong\nIt’s eating me alive\nI’m trying to survive my feelings\nThe joy is the ghost of a wanderer\nLost somewhere outside of here\nCounting every hour