Alone - Halie Loren

Lying awake, on my own again

I can finally steal the entire bed

And yet I curl into this ball of flesh

Protected from the chill that starts

Inside my bones and spreads to parts

Of me that I’d forgotten could feel

The pain of cold

But they’ll numb themselves soon enough or so I’m told

Alone

Desperate for somebody, for you to hold

But all I’ll be is holding out until the only skin I need’s my own

To feel at home again

Alone again

Window is open and the sky is dim

You know me and my affair with 4 a.

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But all I wish for now is sleep’s sweet release

Music of the rain keeps me awake

Wishing it were running down my face

Instead of rivulets of the saltier kind

Oh, how it stings

But like learning, healing’s only something time can bring

Alone

Desperate for somebody, for you to hold

But all I’ll be is holding out until the only skin I need’s my own

To feel at home again

Alone again

The walls where our shadows used to play

The echoes of promises we made

The sheets where our bodies used to lay

Tangled and hard to discern

Like telling apart happiness and familiar comfort

Alone

Desperate -- for you to hold

But all I’ll be is holding out until the only skin I need’s my own

To feel at home again

Alone again

Whole again

Alone again…