Medicate - Flaw

I’ve been lying awake at night

I’ve been hoping that I’m alright

I’ve been winding myself too tight

Wondering if I will sleep tonight

Never thought things would get like this

Always hoping that they’d work out

Still ingesting the wrong amount

Now I seem to be filled with doubt

I cannot stop this ride

I’m growing cold inside

I shouldn’t let it slide

Will sickness be mine

This should not be my weight to bear

Go on acting like I don’t care

Stop this high… I wouldn’t dare

I have earned and deserve my share

Things like this happened every day

While I’m in there I feel okay

But you say I should get away

Let me go for just one more day

I’ve got to medicate myself, I’m not concerned about my health

It covers up what I’ve been dealt, it seems the only way

I’ve got to medicate myself, it’s been the only thing that helped

Must cover up what I’ve felt, it seems the only way

Sickness is mine, sickness is mine, sickness is mine