Watching Films to Forget I Exist - Employed To Serve

I would try and climb these walls

But I am scared

That there is barbed wire waiting at the top

I keep coming to these conclusions, that this is how to live

But it doesn’t help all the confusion

17 and no dreams break a leg, break a leg

Eyes on you

Make a move

Like the rest

Just as they do

They all make it look so easy, but it really isn’t

Now climb into your grave

Let’s hope you dug it deep, and not shallow

Like our expectations for you

Your just one more name on the list

Nothing new, nothing special

Raise your hand feel the blade

Fix a drink reminisce to when you could tolerate life

Till all hope bled, from your outlook

To the ones with the sun in their eyes

Good for you, your way of life I refrain

Nothing to you

Eyes on you

Make a move

Eyes on you

See it through

There’s no motivation to be perfect

There’s no motivation to be… like you

Severed from

My life

Nothing to prove

Nothing to lose but it all

Severed from my life

Nothing to prove

Lose it all

I’ve got to, pretend that life isn’t really happening

Lost it all

I need to, convince myself that I don’t exist

I could start dreaming, but how do I dream when I cannot sleep?

I could start wishing, but what do I wish for when I don’t know what I want?