Oikophobia - Drapht

I got motherfuckin' brain fog, die off, internal kibosh

Tired of al the violent pirate like inner dialog

Loud as a lions roar

Some days I feel I follow in footsteps of a dinosaur

And ending it, cause there’s venom in my bloodstream

Anger is disgusting

And I mask this pain with the food, booze and fucking these floozies

A cry for help that got lost up in the acoustics

Man, fuck music

Fuck social media dude, took the easier route

Literally the easier root, she was Eve with the fruit

Trusting the snake instead of seeing our truth now

Like owl, like who’s using who now

Had the broom out, sweep it under the rug

Full moon was out.

Acting like big brother

And fucking with my emotions and now they say I chose this?

Cross between king cobra and blow fish

Blowing up from rosacia, she spitting venom, not coping

White as a ghost of the christmas past

And I’m still out in the dark in the rain

Went from house, to house, to house

To house, I couldn’t go inside

Scared what I might find

And so I

Walked around, around, around, around

From dumpster to dive

I couldn’t go inside

My oikophobia

See every blessing ignored becomes a curse man

Feel like the worst version of myself

Every time I drink another San Miguel

I sink like a hermit crab in my shell, I think with my genitals

Used to be a gentleman

General type of diligence, applauded for killing them

But this was way before I knew the force

Of my thoughts and the limitless experience, the brilliance

Was inside, but I was stunted

By confronted fear an anaconda around my windpipe

I can’t speak, thinking I was broken

Unable to say I love you, frozen by the emotion man

Was left unspoken

For like 21 years, before then certain friends called me queer

But those friends ended up addicted to gear

See that’s a world of fear for you

No one to say I’m here for you

No one to lend an ear for you

And tell you you’re imperial

No, so I

Went from house, to house, to house

To house, I couldn’t go inside

Scared what I might find

And so I

Walked around, around, around, around

From dumpster to dive

I couldn’t go inside

My oikophobia