I Just Wanted Love - Domo Wilson

I was 10 in my room praying looking at the sky

Crying cause I didn’t like the fact that I was bi

Couldn’t figure out why

But I’d try

Begging God to make me straight cause I just wanna like guys

Nobody knew I was ashamed so I was very homophobic

Fighting things inside of me and hoping no one noticed

Turned 14 it was my life it was the focus

Seeing pretty girls and falling fast cause I was hopeless

But I ain’t wanna be like this because I knew I was ashamed

Cutting on my wrist and asking God to take the pain

It felt like everyday was rain

Because my adolescence brain

Would listen to the ones around me saying that I’m strange

And I ain’t wanna be like this because I knew I was ashamed

Cutting on my wrist and asking God to take the pain

It felt like everyday was rain

Because my adolescence brain

Would listen to the ones around me saying that I’m strange

When I was 16 I ran home from school

Went into my room and locked the door and grabbed the stool

Wrote a note to everyone and said the world is cruel

Asking God for mercy cause I couldn’t take the rules

And I was crying I was screaming asking god to take this pain away

And if I die tonight they will forget me it will fade away

And something in my head was tellin me to put the blade away

The devil saying do it but the angel saying stay today

I just wanted love

For someone to just tell me that it’s fine

I wanted to feel loved

I wanted time

I just wanted conversation

A mental health day for vacation

I just wanted to be heard I wanted patience

But I ain’t wanna be like this because I knew I was ashamed

Cutting on my wrist and asking God to take the pain

It felt like everyday was rain

Because my adolescence brain

Would listen to the ones around me saying that I’m strange

And I ain’t wanna be like this because I knew I was ashamed

Cutting on my wrist and asking God to take the pain

It felt like everyday was rain

Because my adolescence brain

Would listen to the ones around me saying that I’m strange

And now that I’m older

I’m glad that I made it

Cause I can be me

And I don’t gotta fake it

Teenager me would be so proud so proud

And now that I’m older

I’m glad that I made it

Cause I can be me

And I don’t gotta fake it

Teenager me would be so proud

Cause I just wanted love

For someone to just tell me that it’s fine

I wanted to feel loved

I wanted time

I just wanted conversation

A mental health day for vacation

I just wanted to be heard I wanted patience

Now I’m ok with being me and I am no longer am ashamed

It’s ok cause you don’t gotta feel the pain

Just remember it’s a rainbow at the end of every rain

Straight, bi, trans, lesbian its loving all the same

Now I’m ok with being me and I am no longer am ashamed

It’s ok to be whoever you don’t gotta feel the pain

Just remember it’s a rainbow at the end of every rain

Straight, bi, trans, lesbian its loving all the same

And now I feel the love

I feel like I can be myself

Strangers all around the world they help

This little girl inside

Is now filled with so much pride

The hatred in my heart has died