In the Heart - Dice Raw

In the heart of the city where we were raised

Can’t be afraid have to be brave can’t show fear

Or emotion

Show nothing

I hated school I hated rules

Hated all my teachers, hated all my principals

Well not all, I guess one didn’t try to play me

She thought I was smart I guess she was going to save me

But when you try to save the world it makes you crazy

That’s why I don’t blame her for giving up

Especially on a nigga that clearly just doesn’t give a fuck

Cause in my heart I already knew my fate would precede my lifestyle

And that I might die behind a gate

Because a life of crime only takes you two places

Yeah two places where you don’t need no suitcases

Looking back at it moving in a few phases

It’s hard to pinpoint life in these confusing ages

When childhood stops and manhood beings

Child born in the wild smiles all pretend

If a child of the wild smiles just to draw you in

Show no fear waiting for your ass to jump

Carry my gun everywhere like it’s my asthma pump

But the only difference is it takes your breath away

So my advice is that you should walk away

And if there’s no compliance

Well there’s really nothing left to say

It’s crazy how much hatred

We have for one another

When I buy a gun I buy it for my brother

Not as a gift but incase one of my brothers wanna

Start actin a little niggerish in a disrespectful manner

Well then I got the hammer to hit him with

Cause you can’t show weakness

When you in the guerrillasness

Is this the jungle, or the neighborhood that I grew up in

If it’s a jungle, pass the ammo get to bustin

I’m sure it’s planned by someone who finds it interustin'

My brain, my heart

Inside inner-wrestling

My brain has my heart inside the full-nelson

I’m a piece of shit and I know it

It’s hard to change and outgrow it

It’s hard to deal with my frustrations

When I feel it I show it

Give me a chance and I’ll blow it

Low and behold is my crutch

Caught in-between making a difference and not giving a fuck

I’m at in a pool with a ] on both arms

Tired of playing a fool blind in search of shelter from harm

I’m a flower surrounded by piece of weeds on the lawn

Allergic to the rays of the Sun, but I’m leaving at dawn

I’m gone, leaving behind all the pressure and pain

All the aggression and oppression that I try to withstand

All the negative thinking that’s leaving a void in my brain

All the liquor, all the weed wet pills and the cain

I’m profane and strange accept it and love me the same

I’m a work of imperfection from the vessel I came

Easy for me to play it out but it’s hard to explain

It’s hard making out the line between my pride and my shame