Holdin On - Cam Meekins

Holdin on to dreams

Are you really what it seems?

Or am I a little uh uh uh…

Are you really that convenient for me

Or am I just long long lost…

Holdin on to dreams

Are you really what it seems?

Or am I a little uh uh uh…

Are you really that convenient for me

Or am I just long long lost…

Hey yo, she said she was a troubled soul

I was on my way to work

She had the type of smile

And eyes that made me act on high alert

I used to talk to her

Our conversations were business and development

And that made me wanna hit it

But I didn’t know how to tell her that, a local girl

I knew her from around the way, your mutual friends

I think that she was under the impression

That good things come to an end

And so was I

Making my mark as a producer and MC

Still a little egotistical to girls, I was very friendly

But they didn’t know the real me

She was genuinely interested

And when I broke her heart

I think that you can make the inference

That I wouldn’t ever win again

I gave up everything I had

I’d even give up rap and songs

I got to apologize to her dad

But yo, I’mma keep it real

I’m tryna have you in that benzo

Even though we ain’t speaking

I see that we’re still friends on venmo

But I can’t pretend no

I ain’t perfect, I ain’t worth it

I’m probably just gonna keep doing me

And make these songs to serve a purpose

Of freein' my mind

And finally get my ass up outta that bed

I was sick in the head for, and honestly I still am

But yo, I gotta get on this train

I gotta get this money

And I’ll be damned if I’mma let my emotions

Take opportunity from me

Holdin on to dreams

Are you really what it seems?

Or am I a little uh uh uh…

Are you really that convenient for me

Or am I just long long lost…

Holdin on to dreams

Are you really what it seems?

Or am I a little uh uh uh…

Are you really that convenient for me

Or am I just long long lost…

If you don’t like my music

Then that’s probably fine

Cause what you don’t realize

Is that this is way more than a rhyme

This is my therapy, my soul

My blood, my life and my death

My remembrance, my livelihood

My heart and my breath

The only thing that mattered to me

She know who she is

And when I get that chance to tell her again

I’mma make sure that she hear me

I’ll speak it clearly, I fucked up

The fact that you’ll even call me back

Means that I lucked up

But I go back and forth from wantin' to knuckle up

This dude that you’ve been puckerin' up

But I know I’mma make peace with you

No matter how long it takes

Cause my heart bleeds for you

And that is not a mistake

There’s bigger forces here and I know it

So we can take this break

I’m straight, I’ll be alright

And I know you’re doin' okay

Cause life goes on, life goes on, uh

Life goes on, life goes on, yeah

Life goes on, life goes on

Holdin on to dreams

Are you really what it seems?

Or am I a little uh uh uh…

Are you really that convenient for me

Or am I just long long lost…

Holdin on to dreams

Are you really what it seems?

Or am I a little uh uh uh…

Are you really that convenient for me

Or am I just long long lost…

And if I never get to see you again

Still wish you the best

Cause if I’m alive, that mean that I’m blessed

And if we alive, we gon' get through the stress

Yes, yes…