Clockwork - Bishop Ivy

I have bad dreams again

I flipped my mom’s red sedan on the pavement

Wake up in sweats

Late to school again

Could three hours make my dream a reality

Maybe I was right when

I said I was unhealthy

But you wouldn’t believe me and

I tried getting right

Couldn’t balance the scales

Cause its arms were too frail

I’ll relapse like clockwork fast just

Bring me up

From the start

Take me down

Fall apart

It all comes back like sky turns black

Bring me up

From the start

Take me down

Fall apart

If I could dream up a world

I’d never say a word

Run away without a sword

I don’t want the fame

Or take up too much space

Could I make a better place

Without branding a name

Maybe I was right when

I said I was unhealthy

But you wouldn’t believe me and

I tried getting right

Couldn’t balance the scales

Cause its arms were too frail

I’ll relapse like clockwork fast just

Bring me up

From the start

Take me down

Fall apart

It all comes back like sky turns black

Bring me up

From the start

Take me down

Fall apart

In all that I do

I’m scared I’ll never find truth

That I’ll never make proof

Of what I thought I always knew

If it’s my time to go

I let the mirror tell me so

That I never really know

If it’s the last time I’ve woke

It’s just that I look at her picture a lot

Because it’s right there, you know, on the bedside

And you wake up, and you go to bed

And you’re starting your day and ending your day with —

It’s hard not to look at the picture

She looks so beautiful in that picture

I miss you sweetie