Slow Burn - Atreyu

It begins with a dark glowing ember,

something black burning it"s way out of me.

Searing the flesh,

pain is the only thing I feel,

scars all I see.

Oh no the fire"s burning my insides again,

what can I do to silence my desire tonight?

Flames consuming reason leaving only ashes left

you will catch me for regretting my decision,

I can"t keep telling myself what I want to hear,

I can"t just close my eyes.

I know that it"s killing me,

and it"s poisoning the best in me,

but I say, I don"t want to believe.

what I see, I don"t want to believe.

So let me tell you more (tell you more)

about the lies I lead.

That is how I choose to douce the flames in gasoline

Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head

Wreckage from the past haunts me, shake me to the bone (to the bone)

I know it"s over but I can"t go home tonight.

But after this I feel as empty as the night before,

feel the pain and yet I"m still begging for more.

Masochistic, nihilistic, urging backward thought

My life"s a mess and I can"t find a way to fix it.

I can"t keep telling myself what I want to hear,

I can"t just close my eyes

(my eyes, my eyes, my fucking eyes)

I know that it"s killing

me,

and it"s poisoning the best of me,

What I see, I don"t want to believe.

So let me tell you more, tell you more,

about the lies I lead.

Calling, calling out.

The darkest reaches of my soul,

are riddled with self-doubt.

Crawling, crawling out,

my will to fight will more than suffice,

when others would lay down.

It"s only as dark as you make it.

I know that it"s killing me,

and it"s poisoning the best of me,

but I say, I don"t want to believe.

So let me tell you more, tell you more

about the lies I lead.