My Suicide - Angels of Light

Cut the eyes out of my head

Tear my tongue out if I speak, if I speak

Raise up your camera razor lights

Feed the evil and the weak, feed the weak

Hear me now

My tongue is in your ear

The center of your body

Is the place I hide the fear of loss

Of suicide

Suck the hatred from my mouth

Raise the dead man that you found, that you found

Silver black mud in my lungs

Leave me down here wasted with the useless and the stone

Leave me now

As I choke and writhe

But feel my body stuck

Upon the dull and silent knife

Of my suicide

Remove my face from in the mirror

Sift my hair into the fire

Mock me for the suffering I fake

Leave me naked on the carpet, leave my drunken body splayed

See me now

My broken fingers search your mouth

For the drugged and senseless words

That are seducing me back home

Into my suicide

I hate you all for what I’ve done

I hate you for the texture and the color of your skin

I hate your whispered breath upon my neck

I hate you for your love and I hate you for your sex

Feel me now

I’m growing in your insides

The warm feelings that you bring

Contain the seeds now flowering

Into my suicide