i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares - SHINIGAMI

The worthless, uncertain

The water, is rising

I’m choking, help me

I don’t know how much more I can take

Oh, what a beautiful night it is, the wind is howling at my skin

Inching me closer to my window, and I’m not scared at all

A walking corpse, cleanse my soul

Rid me of all my impurities

Or let me rot, six feet deep

Either way’s fine with me

I gave the world my heart

And all I have to show for it are scars and nightmares

And I always think about how fucked up it is that we live our whole lives

trying to please others

But we could never please ourselves

Day after day, night after night

It’s just never enough and it will never be enough

And now everyday I just sit in this bed and feel sorry for myself and the cycle

repeats like clockwork

Years to months to days to hours to minutes to seconds

And I swear the only way out of this prison I put myself in

Is a bullet to my fucking head or a bottle of spilt pills

I need to learn to just to give in

There’s no point in fighting it anymore