Hell - Fathoms

hiding behind cigarettes and a bitter smile

when was the last time you felt alive

you shouldn’t have to pull out your eyes

to find a better outlook on life

With everything I have I want to hate you

but I can’t seem to break the routine

With everything I have I want to hate you

you keep me tied down and I can’t ever leave

and I put myself through hell

to look better in the eyes of someone else

I’ll be the fuel to your fire and I’ll let it burn

so let me fall asleep and don’t wake me up

or show me what I’ve been missing while I’ve been blinking

So just throw me the rope and I’ll hang myself again for the thousandth time

You keep letting it slack and bringing me back when I’m pleading for this to end

and I put myself through hell

to look better in the eyes of someone else

I’m looking up at the clouds

Be my silver lining

let me leave the past behind me

in the dark I see you shining

take all this hate from inside me

just be my silver lining

let me leave the past behind

in the dark I can see you

take all this hate from inside

where are you when I need you

and I’ve been biting my nails for this

dug in my palms clenched into a fist

I should have known I’m too weak to resist

bury me with my ignorance